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Jun 5

God forgive me

Today I did something I regret
I started a fight with my family. I was trying to write an essay, when I heard my brother singing in the next room over. I asked him to stop, and he commented that I messed up a program he was doing. He was hardly 5 seconds into it. I was annoyed and I insisted I was not the one who messed it up.

I told him to stop being a dick. Or maybe he told me to stop being a dick. I was trying to write a final exam, and I didn’t need his distractions. He informed me that he wrote an exam the previous night with us being loud, and I called bullshit. He should’ve known the importance of what i was doing then, I thought. SO I told him to leave me be and to shut up, or I would cut the power to his room, and he said I couldn’t do it. So I did. 

I went upstairs to write my paper, away from our blacked out rooms. And he yelled through his ceiling to my little sisters room, where our mom was, to tell her to make me turn it back on. She told me to turn it back on, but I didn’t. I was sick of him being an ass, or so I thought. She got mad. She told me to turn it on again. I said no. She said it again. I said no. She screamed in my face. I screamed back.

She took my phone away. I didn’t care. I was writing and exam. She tried to take my laptop away. It had a broken hinge, and I didn’t want it broken worse, so I didn’t let her. Every time i tried to get up she pushed me back on the couch. What was I supposed to do? Knock her down? So I told her I was sick of his shit. I was sick of all of it. She said if I didn’t like it to leave, so I tried to, but she blocked the front door and said no.

We were screaming at this point. I was hysterical and I could feel it. I could feel it was wrong to yell, and I could feel I was hurting my family with each hoarse yell I let out. But I couldn’t stop. It was automatic. Rather, I could have stopped it, but I didn’t. I just didn’t.
My brother came upstairs, and he started screaming too. So I told him to shut the fuck up. I tried to leave again but she still wouldn’t let me through. Everybody was screaming. Insulting me. So I insulted them. And I threatened to punch my brother in his fucking nose. And I must’ve scared him. And I must’ve scared my mom.

My mom slapped me, and I lost it. I had been keeping myself from crying a little the whole time, and now I started screaming at her louder. I went batshit, i could feel myself growing upset and I could feel how wrong i was to lash out… so why didn’t I stop? My brother thought I was going to hurt her.. so he got involved. The next thing I knew he was hugging me and crying, and saying how sorry he was. My mom backed off and I started hugging and crying too. And we just stood there for a while, apologizing..
I think I need to change the way I communicate.
I think I need to change the way I operate, and get my work done. I need to take responsibility and get things done. 
I guess I need to grow up.


Apr 6

Why The Fall Out Boy Reunion Can Go Die In A Fire

jadedpunk:

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It’s been almost two weeks since Fall Out Boy announced they would be getting back together and for whatever the fuck reason, we are still hearing about it. But in the grand scheme of music news, this should’ve been filed at the very top of the who-gives-a-fuck pile. Here’s why.

1. Three Years Isn’t A Hiatus

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Fall Out Boy announced they were going on hiatus in November 2009. That’s barely over three years ago. Three years isn’t a hiatus. There are currently active bands better than Fall Out Boy who haven’t put out material in longer than that. Dillinger Four hasn’t released new material since 2008. Or how about this: My Bloody Valentine put out an album this year which was their first in 22 years. Can you comprehend how long 22 years is, Fall Out Boy fans? It’s longer than Fall Out Boy’s manager wants you to believe Pete Wentz has been alive. Pete is actually 33 fucking years old and still tweets shit like this:

when girls aren’t listening to you they say things like “aw” when you’re done talking. guys just look at their phones. we need our “aw” word

— Pete Wentz(@petewentz) July 6, 2012

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Mar 21

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devotionaura:

everyone watch this video of my dog gettin embarrassed that i caught him singin

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Feb 3

epic-vines:

How to get your dogs to stop fighting

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Jan 26

SIGNAL BOOST!!!!!!!!

ladymarvels:

Okay that virus that’s going around, is seriously fucking scary. I got the same thing on my computer about a week ago and I got rid of it, but it took a lot. This type of virus can control your browser, it can control your webcam, it can control all your files, and track you.

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I got this twice, like 3 maybe 4-5 monthes ago, it was so scary and it took a picture of me. My brother in law fixed it in a week the first time, the second time i, muah, myself, bypassed the virus and restored the system myself. It was great success. Still a bullshit virus.


Jan 18

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dekutree:


themoonatnight:

dekutree:

white people are so 1500 BC

okay but really…. this is kind of annoying because its like african cuisine is NOT FUCKING DEFINED BY ONE BUNCH OF DISHES ON A TABLE, NOR IS ASIAN, NOR IS ARAB, NOR IS HISPANIC, NOR IS FUCKING WHITEI AM WHITE YES I AM BUT WHITE CUISINE IS NOT THIS WHY IS THERE NOT A PICTURE OF ESCARGOT AND BOUILLABAISSE AND SPAGHETTI OR MANICOTTI OR APPLE PIE OR HOT DOGS im sorry i just hate when people are like “wow white people lol” because its true that white people have done a lot of bad shit but that shouldnt discredit certain things, all im saying

white people be like

dekutree:

themoonatnight:

dekutree:

white people are so 1500 BC

okay but really….

this is kind of annoying because its like

african cuisine is NOT FUCKING DEFINED BY ONE BUNCH OF DISHES ON A TABLE, NOR IS ASIAN, NOR IS ARAB, NOR IS HISPANIC, NOR IS FUCKING WHITE

I AM WHITE YES I AM BUT WHITE CUISINE IS NOT THIS WHY IS THERE NOT A PICTURE OF ESCARGOT AND BOUILLABAISSE AND SPAGHETTI OR MANICOTTI OR APPLE PIE OR HOT DOGS


im sorry i just hate when people are like “wow white people lol” because its true that white people have done a lot of bad shit but that shouldnt discredit certain things, all im saying

white people be like

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vin008:

NEVER FORGET

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Jan 16

paranormal-intercourse:

egoraptoir:

this guy is too stupid it entertains me

He can’t be serious

Also wash your hair

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Jan 15

lindsaychrist:

CHRIST.

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greatwhiteprivilege:

guys are so full of shit “i’ll fuck you til you scream” yeah right you’ll finish in 3 minutes then roll over and sleep while i lie there trying to figure out when exactly you stuck it in

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